Searching for A.W. - He Has Forgotten Love

Searching for A.W. - He Has Forgotten Love (A.W（アレン・ウォーカー）をたずねて・道化の戯れ言;A.W. (Aren Wōkā) wo Tazunete Dōke no Zaregoto )is the two hundred and nineteenth chapter of D.Gray-man written and illustrated by Katsura Hoshino.

Summary
Wisely is talking with the remnants of Road within their shared consciousness. They talk about Road's actions saving Allen and Wisely's struggles with his Noah's hatred towards Nea. The two also muse on that if the Millennium Earl dies they would follow suit, but if the Millennium Earl is allowed to live to turn into the Pillar they would still die. They are interrupted by Tyki Mikk breaing into the cart Wisely was sitting in, looking for the Millennium Earl, but finding his seat empty. Tyki is worried about the Earl and beats up Wisely for keeping his guard down, but while the two attempts to locate him through Wisely's power Fiidora, sitting next to the cart, reveals that he has gotten word of Jasdevi, Sheril and Maashiima having captured Apocryphos, though he is ignored.

The Earl is screaming with rage and accuses Mana of pitting himself and Nea against eachother. The resonance reaction on Allen's arm ceases and Nea, in Allen's body, introduces himself to the Millenium Earl. Upon seeing Nea's face again, the Earl falls apart, leaving his suit and embracing him. While the Earl is holding Nea, weeping, the latter prepares to strike him from behind, but stops when the Earl starts talking. The Earl exclaims confusion over his conflicting emotions of affection and betrayal towards Nea. On the one hand Nea tried to kill him, and the Earl was forced to kill him in turn, but on the other hand he can't bear the thought of being without him. Nea falters, teary eyed, and hugs the Earl back while the Earl exclaims that he hates him. Nea then steps back and cradles the Earl's face, claiming it had changed and wondering whether it was a result of him remembering Nea. The Earl is taken aback and confused and does not recall having another face, claiming that he has "always looked this way", to which Nea reveals that the Earl must have had his face and memory "destroyed" /changed. Nea then tells the crying Earl of the reason why he wanted to be with him.

A flashback shows a weeping Noah standing by a tree in a golden field. He is dressed in the same clothes as the current Earl and his hat is taken by the wind. A young human woman, Katerina Eve Campbell, Nea and Mana's mother, picks it up. The next time she returns to the tree to meet with the Earl the man is gone and left are two twins lying upon his robes, the 14th says that they are Nea and Mana. Referring to the Earl as Mana, he reveals that the two of them were once one being: The Millennium Earl.

Chapter Notes

 * This chapter reveals a significant revelation that brings much confusion:
 * Nea, upon meeting the Earl again, outside of his costume, refers to him as Mana, his late brother, who died years before the story began.This calls into question the current Earl's real identity, as well as Mana's true fate
 * Mana and Nea are revealed to not be merely twins, but two halves of the same being: the original Earl of Millennium.:
 * Mana and Nea's story echos the story of Cain and Abel. What's more, their adoptive mother's second name is Eve and the being whom they spring from is called Adam.

Trivia

 * With 61/62 pages, this is the longest chapter of D.Gray-man.


 * This is also the first chapter of D.Gray-Man in the Jump SQ Crown. The chapter follows a hiatus of more than two years and a half.
 * The volume version has an extra black page at the beginning of the chapter compared to its magazine counterpart. This is because in volume the chapter begins on an odd page number while in magazine it begins on an even one. Thus this is required to feature the spreads without page change.